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The Gardenhead knows my name.
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[Dec. 31st, 2008|01:08 am] |
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| | Arcade Fire - Wake Up | ] |
This song is such a perfect fit for how I've been feeling lately.
Somethin' filled up
My heart with nothin',
Someone told me not to cry.
But now that I'm older,
My heart's colder,
And I can see that it's a lie.
Children wake up,
Hold your mistake up,
Before they turn the summer into dust.
If the children don't grow up,
Our bodies get bigger but our hearts get torn up.
We're just a million little god's causin rain storms turnin' every good thing to rust.
I guess we'll just have to adjust.
With my lighnin' bolts a glowin'
I can see where I am goin' to be
When the reaper he reaches and touches my hand.
With my lighnin' bolts a glowin'
I can see where I am goin'
With my lighnin' bolts a glowin'
I can see where I am go-goin'
You better look out below! |
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| Friends Only |
[Oct. 29th, 2008|09:48 am] |
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This journal is basically friends only. I don't even post a lot for my friends as my posts are usually private if I do post. I am very active in communities though. I'm not a lurker or spammer or whatever. I've had this journal for 4 years. |
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[Mar. 20th, 2006|01:46 am] |
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The show tonight was amazing. I'm so glad Animal Collective was all that I hoped it would be. |
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| Sometimes you hear me when others they can't hear me. |
[Mar. 4th, 2006|01:39 am] |
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| | The Purple Bottle - Animal Collective | ] |
So it's official:
I will be seeing Animal Collective!
I am going with my sister, her fiance, and his friend.
I'm very excited about this.
Did I mention that I'm absolutely loving life right now? |
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| Hey.... an update! |
[Jan. 28th, 2006|12:36 pm] |
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| | Crab, Clam, Cockle, Cowrie - Joanna Newsom | ] |
I never post, but I'm trying to get a little better at that, so here's an update:
After years of searching, I was finally able to obtain Jeff Mangum's 1993 demos. Holy shit. Seriously, if I never get any more new music for the rest of my life, I'll be content, and anyone who knows me knows that's a big statement from me. I love my music.
Also, I've really been into the whole folk sounding bands lately. Okkervil River (of course, they own my heart), Edith Frost, Mirah, Bonnie Prince Billy, Joanna Newsom are just some of those bands. I've also been listening to some Andrew Bird, Chad Vangaalen, Clap Your Hands Say Yeah, Animal Collective, Jens Lekman, Songs: Ohia, Wolf Parade, and Frog Eyes. I've actually just been listening to a whole lot of random crap, and I know that no one really cares about what I've been listening to, but if I didn't write this, I wouldn't have too much to update about.
School is alright. Switching from a Literature major to a Physics major is crazy, but at least I've found the major that I'm going to stick with. I absolutely love reading and everything that goes along with Literature, but unfortunately I've been way less than satisfied with any Lit class I've taken at either of the colleges I've been to. Physics, on the other hand, is probably one of the hardest majors ever, but since I'm concentrating in Astronomy, I get to take some cool classes along with the whole Quantum Physics route. I just feel honored to have been asked by some of the professors in the Physics/Astronomy department to strongly consider changing my major to Physics with a concentration in Astronomy. State has one of the best, if not the best, Astronomy programs in the nation. It's pretty dang awesome.
That concludes my update. Hopefully you'll be seeing some more of these this year. |
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| there are some mornings where the sky looks like a road |
[Jan. 6th, 2006|02:51 am] |
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| | sweet summer's night on hammer's hill ~ Jens Lenkman | ] |
i feel like a completely different person from a year ago
i have yet to decide whether this is good or bad
I'm not as trusting, as nice as I used to be.
I've learned to hate.
I still have never loved.
Or maybe I have. I keep these things close to my heart, only that person who really knows can know this truth.
I've learned who I can trust. It's sad how it's all the people I used to laugh at and consider not my good friends that have proven themselves to be there through everything. I've lost a best friend due to shallowness and self-centeredness, and through this I have learned who to care about. I wouldn't change last year for the world because I grew and changed so much, regardless of all the shit I had to deal with. I learned the meaning of friendship, and for that I am grateful.
Tonight I danced at 80s night, and I realized that people love me. I'm fun. I don't care what people think. I just do what I want, and people appreciate. I think I'm finally turning over that new leaf that I'm always talking about but never fully understanding.
Leaving this second decade and coming to the brink of my third, I finally know who I am. I know that it's not how many people think of you and care about you but who, and I think I'm finally ready to move ahead in life. |
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| all the latest toughs |
[Dec. 19th, 2005|03:57 pm] |
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| | okkervil river | ] |
All the latest toughs, you’ve got to shrug them off or shut them off. With ten-thousand-time-told truths, you’ve still got to ask for proof. Ask for proof, because if you’re dying to be led they’ll lead you up the hill in chains to their popular refrains until your slaughter’s been arranged, my little lamb, and it’s much too late to talk the knife out of their hands. Well, I woke up on a foggy morning. Hiding from the sun, he was hiding from the sun. But it came out and it shot its rays down. Burning everyone, it was burning everyone. But they were dying, anyway, to turn to ash, to feel their feelings flash and finally fade away, in a fabulous and fiery display. Look, though, I don't know what notes you want to hear played, I can't think what lines you'd like me to sing or say, and I'm not sure what subjects you want mentioned. So pause and add your own intentions.
All the latest toughs, well, we have seen that stuff, and we have seen enough blood in dying coughs, which means that we have lost. We have lost, and if you’re crying to be tossed they’ll toss you down the oubliette with all the old things that you let yourself forget because you’d like to love a star who’d throw you down below the ground he thinks you are.
I erased my last memory of you today. |
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| Everything is beautiful far away. |
[Dec. 9th, 2005|01:40 pm] |
Screw that last entry. I guess I'm still going to update some.
This semester has gone by so quickly. I have all As going into finals, so hopefully I can pull out a 4.0 this semester. That would seriously be really awesome because I've actually worked pretty hard this semester and tried my best not to procrastinate. I also am supposed to meet with my astronomy professor to discuss changing my major to physics with a concentration in astronomy. I've been doing consistently well on his tests, and he asked to see me after class and told me that I should consider majoring in astronomy. I was really excited because I've always been such a nerd about that stuff, but we'll see what goes down when I talk to him.
There's really nothing else to update on, except that I would like to see people over break. I'm going to be at my place in Atlanta for most of it, but it's not a far drive home at all. Sorry this update was so lame. |
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| pointless post time! |
[Nov. 14th, 2005|12:46 pm] |
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| | Halloween - Matt Pond PA | ] |
I never do these things, but I got bored and found my results funny.
Your Linguistic Profile:
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75% General American English |
20% Yankee |
5% Upper Midwestern |
0% Dixie |
0% Midwestern |
I think that's pretty funny seeing as how I've only ever lived in Louisiana, Texas, and Georgia. The upper Midwestern makes sense though I guess since both my parents are from Wisconsin.
Yay for pointless posts. |
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[Oct. 13th, 2005|10:09 pm] |
Tonight is decidedly lame.
This weekend better be fun, or I will be upset. |
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| You have the pressure in you to destroy the one that loved you. |
[Oct. 8th, 2005|08:44 pm] |
I made myself a new icon. I like it a lot. I've been listening to Mirah a lot lately, and I really want to see her live again. The last time I saw her it was amazing because it was at the eyedrum. Sorry I don't really have anything interesting to post lol. Life has been going well and I'm content, which is crazy and a completely new feeling to me.
You should listen to "Mount Saint Helens" by Mirah. I've always overlooked that song until recently, and I never noticed how wonderfully written it was until the other day. |
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| hmm |
[Oct. 3rd, 2005|12:58 am] |
so i guess if you find a picture of your ex boyfriend and someone who was one of your closest friends for years making out, you are supposed to like hate the world or something.
i found myself in this exact situation, but my reaction went like this:
1- I started laughing and said out loud, "well, I guess now I know that I was right"
2- I started shaking and my stomach went numb
3- I decided I had to pee and walked to the bathroom
4- I sat on the floor instead and started crying
5- I walked out of the bathroom and looked at my roommate (who knows me and the girl in question very well) and kind of yelled "How could they do this to me?" and then started bawling
6- After like a minute of that I walked back into my room and continued crying
7- Called my friend scott who came over to talk things over
8- Stopped crying and just decided that I can't change things and I just hope that they are happy and that they end up better than we did
9- Left her a message on facebook asking her to call me because I just want to let her know that I know but that things are okay
This all happened in a span of 20 minutes by the way lol.
I'm glad that this is my reaction because it solidifies the fact that I'm over it and have been over it. Yeah, it was shocking at first, but I'm really glad that I know now because a lot of questions have been answered. I honestly just hope that they are happy.
Edit: So I just learned that I've been deleted as her friend on everything, and that's the only part of this situation that hurts me. |
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[Sep. 6th, 2005|07:06 pm] |
Okay. Drama is dumb. Don't ask for me to do your dirty work if you have a problem with someone. The End.
Besides that little message, I really love it here at State. I love being in the city and everything. The people here are really awesome and I've just been having tons of fun. I really wish I had more to say, but I really don't. I'll probably/maybe start updating this more often, but I really don't think anyone reads this. |
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[Aug. 25th, 2005|10:54 pm] |
im durnk i'm drinking i love alchol i love state i love this yay yaya yaya
go drukn! go durnk!
i love lire. |
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[Aug. 24th, 2005|11:53 am] |
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I've decided that I might chew too much gum. I was crying earlier for a really dumb reason, and one of my tears went into my mouth and it tasted minty. Oh well, I'm not giving up my gum addiction. |
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[Aug. 13th, 2005|09:42 pm] |
Okay, so my mom and I are looking at comforters and I found 3 that I really like. I cant tell which one I like best though, so reply with which one you think fits me best haha:
Option 1)
Option 2)
Option 3)
So yeah, I'm just looking at the comforters, not the pillows or anything. Help me decide and I'll love you forever. |
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| Whoa |
[Aug. 12th, 2005|08:30 pm] |
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| | First of the Gang to Die - Morrissey | ] |
So, I decided to go into the Michael's in Buckhead today and just turn in an application, hoping to maybe score an interview later on in the month. I get there and start talking to the assistant manager, telling him about how my mom is a department manager at the store in Canton and how my sister is a front end supervisor at the Athens store. He's a really cool guy, and we seemed to be getting along. In mid-conversation, he just looks at me and goes, "I like you. Come take this mandatory interview and then have me paged to come get you when you finish." So I take this ridiculous survey with questions such as, "Is smoking marijuana on the job a good or a bad thing?" Hmm, I wonder what I should answer for that. But yeah, basically that was how the whole survey went.
I finish with the survey and go to the framing shop where the boy behind the counter wearing a band shirt of the Cure from what seems to be the '80s pages the assistant manager to come get me. As I'm waiting, a really tall girl with blonde dreadlocks walks in and starts talking to me before she goes behind the counter and puts on her red apron. So I'm sitting here thinking, "Wow, this is probably the most interesting/cool group of people at any Michael's store." The assistant manager, Ray, comes to the framing counter finally and tells me to come to the back with him. So I'm sitting in the back room waiting patiently as he jokes around with an absolutely hilarious department manager. She turns and winks at me as she leaves and says, "Welcome to the family, honey." I turn to Ray and he's like, "First of all, I just have to let you know that there are a lot of gay customers. Please tell me that you are okay with that, because I've had people walk out on the job because they saw two men holding hands and shopping." I told him that it didn't bother me at all, so he says, "Yeah... I like you a lot so I'm going to go ahead and hire you. I want you to come in on Monday and work from 2-close and I'll personally train you and get you through the paperwork." I just kind of sat there in shock as he went on to tell me how much he wanted to pay me, which was about $2 above what I was going to ask for per hour, and he didn't even ask me. He ends by walking me out and shaking my hand and telling me how excited he is to have me as part of "the team."
So basically in this past week I went from being homeless/jobless in Atlanta to having a place to live and a really awesome job. I'm really excited. I'm especially excited about the cool co-workers and the discount on art supplies. Dodd is excited too because she's an art major. I think that this will be a good year. |
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| Let me recommend that you think twice, and I always give the best advice. |
[Aug. 10th, 2005|10:59 pm] |
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| | Recommendation - Mirah | ] |
This last part of summer has been pretty good. I feel so much better in just about every aspect of my life.
I found out Monday that I get a dorm which is pretty exciting because I was stressing out about where I was going to live. The funny part is that I got assigned to be Erin's roommate. I'm glad that I got assigned to someone that I know. Sure, we have our moments when we could kill each other, but we've known each other for a long time and always managed to stay friends. It will be cool to have a roommate that I will know is my friend, but at the same time we have some separate interests/friends. I think that it is a good thing.
I've been hanging out with Megan a lot this second half of summer. It's awesome because we really get along and I always have fun with her. It is going to be fun to be living down there so I don't have to worry about the fact that I have to drive 45 minutes each way to hang out.
I still have to find a job in Atlanta. I think I'm going to apply at Michaels because my mom and my sister have worked there for years. My mom said that the Michaels in Buckhead sells the most feather boas out of any other Michaels haha. That's so awesome. I think that if I do end up working there, then I will actually do a lot more do it yourself projects. I'm always thinking of projects but I don't always follow through with them. If I work there, then I will have motivation. I really need to start making more of my own shirts.
Alright, this has a possibility of being my last post from Woodstock for a while. I move in to the village on August 20th. I'm so excited! I can't wait to actually experience college life and not feel so isolated and like I'm working the whole time like I was down in Milledgeville with soccer and everything. |
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[Aug. 3rd, 2005|10:32 pm] |
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Okay random pointless post, but I just wanted to point out that I just taught myself how to use photoshop and made a cool icon of myself. Or at least I think that it is cool and I'm proud of myself. So yeah, I think I have something to keep myself occupied with tomorrow. |
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[Jul. 31st, 2005|02:20 pm] |
I have to find a place to live and a job in Atlanta. This isn't going as smoothly as I had hoped it would. My mom is going down to Atlanta with me on Tuesday to look at possible places to live. I really want to have roommates. I don't want to live alone, but I guess I'll take what I can get.
Yesterday I was talking to an acquaintance from high school that I hadn't talked to in a while, and at the end of the conversation, he said, "You seem so much happier than you did 6 months ago." It was really great to hear that because I feel so much better in every way, but sometimes I think that maybe I'm just lying to myself. It's good to know that I have been getting better.
I'm really starting to kind of stress about starting at State. I'm kinda scared. I'm not transferring again. I know I've made the right choice, but it sucks to basically be a freshman again. I'm a sophomore hours-wise, but I have to start all over again in a new place. I think this time I'll actually be happy and want to meet people. Milledgeville just wasn't for me. |
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